Last night a deeply held fear was triggered within me. One that I had forgotten about for awhile. As with all things Divine, this triggering moment was by no accident. It caused me to realize that this belief was still taking up space within my Being. It had not fully been healed. It desperately wanted healing. This belief wanted to be seen in the Light so that I could recognize that it was never true. To get more detailed, this belief was around my sexuality. I grew up in an environment where my sexuality was not embraced. I was told to deny, reject, and dismiss the fact that I experience attraction to the same sex. I’m not blaming anyone for their behavior and things that were said or done to me. The past is the past and I have found forgiveness for all acts that did not reflect Loving Kindness. What I am saying is that part of me decided to buy into what people were telling me. I was told to be ashamed, and part of me bought into the shame. I was told I was sinful and part of me believed my natural attraction might be sinful. I was told I was unnatural and part of me believed I might be unnatural. I was told I was bad and part of me believed I might be bad. I didn’t have Self-esteem or Self-worth at this time in my Life. I felt very alone and quite misunderstood. I hadn't yet found my own personal loving connection to the Creative Force in the Universe. Without having contact with my True Internal Worth, I became lost in the the sea of criticism and judgement. My own judgements became far worse than anyone else’s. The period I’m describing mostly occurred in my twenties. I continued to suffer from these fear-based judgments into my early thirties. I can tell you now with much relief, that I’m over most of that now. There are small fragments that are still floating around within me and last night one of those fragments was sparked. The fear, guilt, and shame came rushing back. This time, the Universe invited me to feel these feelings without resistance. That is key, without resistance. I was invited to feel them and offer them Unconditional Love. I was invited to forgive my-Self for ever buying into those beliefs in the first place. Feeling them with Love & Forgiveness changed everything. I was able to see the beliefs as False Evidence Appearing Real (Fear). Compassion became my response this time around. With that compassion came healing. To help soothe my body, mind, and Soul, I created some space for Self-care. I set up an energy clearing with sage, palo santo, and healing crystals. I used incense that included frankincense, lavender, myrrh, and sandalwood. (Essential Oils were used too.) I listened to positive affirmation-based music while I placed my feet on an earthing mat (to help ground me). I let the Universe guide me into compassionate Self-healing. I’m so glad I allowed for that. Today I’m feeling light and free. I stopped resisting what wanted to leave me. I allowed for the feelings to be acknowledged with Love. Now, in this moment, I only feel Love. Namaste, Timothy P.S. I went LIVE on this subject with my Soul-Brother, Brandon, today and I've included the video replay below. We dove deep and talked about many of our own personal challenges with sexuality. We also invited a new perspective which we refer to as Sacred Sexuality. It's a wonderful episode and it's all about healing our past to make way for a bright future. I hope you'll watch and give the video a share!
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To the extent that we Trust Life is to the extent that we Trust Ourselves. This is one of the most powerful lessons that’s come through for me recently. I’ve spent so many years not being willing to fully Trust Life. That means not Trusting Life with my dreams, not trusting it with my talents, and not trusting it with the energy that I have each day. I’ve lived much of this Life, “playing it safe.” Doing what the “norm” tells us to do. Living Life that way hasn’t really led me to feeling A-LIVE! Feeling A-LIVE means putting more Trust in Life than ever! It means I’m allowing Life to be my teacher instead of the “norm.” The further I’ve stepped into this chapter the more I in-joy the days. My sense of courage, adventure, curiosity, and wonder are returning. I’m learning to Love & Like my-Self more for exactly Who I Am right now 🌈❤️ I’m smiling more and allowing my-Self to have fun just because (I went to Improv the other night. Just for fun!) 🤗🎭 I’m opening up to ideas I’ve never had before because there’s finally space for them to arrive 🎨🎸 All this to say, that if you want to feel more A-LIVE today, take Life’s hand and let it lead you boldly in the direction of the Unknown. Do something to get outside the “story of who you are” and just Be ✨ Let Life show you how this human thing actually works... Let go of the belief that the “norm” is all there is 👎🏼👎🏼 There is so much more 🙌 Everything you thought was True might actually just be a story. Stories can change ✨ There’s a freedom that comes with allowing your Self to finally, Be. To express the person, or energy, that you feel deep down. Don’t get me wrong, fears come up for most of us in this process but those who have transformed the fear can speak to the freedom on the other side. We’ve all been taught to care so much about what other people think. We’ve also learned to pay special attention to those that tend to be critical of us. I’d like to invite a different perspective. First we must accept our Selves. Yes, this is a process and it tends to happen one layer at a time. You can feel that little bit of extra freedom with each layer though 🌈 🙂 Something inside of us starts to feel more at ease. It feels more expressed. It feels the beauty of having permission to, Be ✨ As we continue to be bold and work through the layers, we start to find comfort in our newfound freedom 🙌 We’ve stopped resisting the Expression that we’ve always known ourselves to be deep down 🌈 💛 This my Friends, goes beyond words. It’s a feeling that exceeds so many others 🎉 It’s one that I’m excited for you to know as well 👍 If you feel you are in the midst of gathering the courage to express more of who you Really Are, let’s talk! I’m a Transformational Life Guide and I’d be happy to see how I can help 🙂 If you have a question or would like to share your transformation story, that’s totally welcome too! Please remember that one of the greatest gifts we can give to our Selves, is the permission to receive Who We Really Are. Let that be known today 🙌 |
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