In my 29th year of life, I began to have a crisis. I realized that my twenties were about to end and that I was incredibly unhappy in life 😔 I remember feeling, "My thirties cannot be like my twenties, I have GOT to make a change." My marriage (at the time) had been rocky for a while. Day by day it became more clear that my former husband and I had different visions for life. That and we just didn't have much in common anymore. I had been an ultra people-pleaser when we met and through the relationship I learned that that was a surefire way to burn myself out in life! Always people-pleasing, ignoring anything that was good for me 🥺 And so after 8-years of being together, it was my dream to move to Los Angeles and study acting which made it clear that we were definitely on different paths. His dream was to have kids, mine was to follow my childhood dream on the other side of the country. It was not easy to go through this transition. I was pretty co-dependent at the time. And so the day that I saw him one last time before I left -- my heart burst into a billion pieces 💔 He drove away first and once his face faded off into the distance I began to wail. It was the most uncomfortable sound I have ever heard in my life 😭 I now call them Soul moans. And -- I feel it was that very wound, that very crack in my heart, that would set me up for the most profound Spiritual Awakening in the months and years to come 🕊 Suddenly there was space to allow a whole new life to enter in. One that would take me beyond people-pleasing, co-dependency, and sacrificing my dreams. In Los Angeles, I finally felt free to express myself. I no longer was surrounded by a community that only believed in one way of life. The Artists were everywhere and they felt, oh so free! Thousands and thousands of people following their hearts and living in the unknown -- they had a dream and the gumption to go for it 🌈🌟 Best of all I finally found a Spiritual path that worked for me. It wasn't about following religious rules -- it was about developing a priceless relationship with All of Life 🌍✨ Realizing that everything in Creation is an Extension of a Loving Creator 🤍✨ This was a Spiritual Path that allowed me to learn to love myself and appreciate my very existence. That was brand new to me at the time 🙏 This path taught me that I was free to be me, free to follow my heart, free to trust my dreams -- and -- free to love others in whatever way my heart felt guided 🙂 (Meaning, to accept them for who they were and whatever spiritual path worked for them.) Yes, that mourning of my old life made space for a brand new one -- one that was far better than anything I had ever experienced before 🎉 It was fun, adventurous, and filled with wonderful souls 🌟 I share this so that anyone out there who's clinging to a far expired chapter may realize that -- just because it's time for a chapter to end does not mean that the story is over. In my experience, there is a way BETTER chapter that is oh so ready to begin 👈 Letting go may not be easy -- and -- if your story is meant to be anything like mine -- the letting go is SO worth it 🙏 Can you trust that Life wants the very best for you? Will you allow it to move you to what is next? It's been a lot easier for me when I've noticed the flow of things and just said, "Yes." 🤍
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TimothyTimothy Waterman is a Globally Celebrated Channel and Trans4mational Guide who passionately speaks on the Process of Conscious Awakening. Categories
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