I Walked Away from My Husband, Our Adopted Dog, a Job, and My Hometown to Start Over... This was my first official day in Los Angeles back in 2014. My youngest sister had driven with me across the country. We did 2600 miles in about 46 hours 🌴🚘 Previous to that I had felt stuck for years. About 7. In my twenties, all I really knew how to do was to people-please. (To make choices to make other people happy, which often caused me to suffer on the inside.) I had no real vision to inspire me in my twenties. All I had really ever wanted was to be in a romantic relationship prior to finding one at 22. I did go through a honeymoon phase and then, pretty quickly I realized that finding someone who wanted to be with me was not the end all be all of Life 🙏 (We did have many lovely moments. Romantic love just wasn't the savior I had believed it to be based on cultural norms.) I'll say again, I had no vision and so I stayed. I thought that was the best that could ever happen to me. My twenties became riddled with anxiety, fear of being myself, and deep lack in terms of fulfillment. Let me tell you I was suffocating by working one job after another that had nothing to do with my passions 😔 When Hope Came Back In At 28, I began to remember that I once had a Dream 🎭 I had always wanted to live in LA and study Acting 🎬 I took action on that remembrance. It was a gift from my Soul 🕊 The first thing I did was look up an Acting Podcast on iTunes 🎧 I found one and it was great. It began to help me vision 🙌 Suddenly I could see myself living in LA, going to auditions, and eventually being in productions that people would see 👀 I stayed with that vision and right around 30 it became abundantly clear that my old life was meant to fall apart 👈 The Moment of Choice My husband (at the time) had learned of my dream and he knew I was holding back due to a fear of leaving him. (I didn't want to hurt him and I had only known life with him for the past 8 years) The unknown did feel a bit intimidating 🥺 He said, "If this is your dream you need to go for it. I'm not going with you and I'm not going to be the reason that you didn't go for it. If I were you I'd quit your job and get there as soon as you can. We only get one life." It wasn't easy to hear that we'd no longer be together -- and -- it was the only real thing holding me back. The obligation I had placed on myself to stay 👈 The process was emotional and I began making moves from there. Things started to come together fast... ----- Ready for Part 2 of this Story? Click here to continue 👀
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𝐈 𝐖𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐀𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 "𝐒𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲 𝐏𝐚𝐲𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤" 𝟐.𝟓 𝐘𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐀𝐠𝐨... I was given a clear invitation via a dream by Way of My Soul (to let my last contracting gig go) and I did ask for confirmation after. The confirmation showed up loud and clear! I had already been putting myself out there as a Spiritual Guide and Coach on social media so after some deep life questioning, I decided to go full-time into that 👻 Living in Los Angeles for many years I often heard the talk of, "If you follow your dreams, you will be provided for." 🕊 And I have been. It's not always felt easy as every limiting belief around "being good enough" and "being provided for" has come up for me to witness 🧘🏻♂️ I've had the days where there's been like $6 in my bank account and each time something like that has occurred, my Soul has brought me to a deeper level of knowing how supported I Am 🕊 Because that was never the end 👈 My Soul has been teaching me for some time now how to walk day by day in what used to be called the Tao (the essential principle underlying existence; ultimate reality -- the way, the path) ☯️ To get straight to the point, We Exist and Therefore It Is Natural for Us to Be Provided For -- day, by day, by day 🥖 And Dreamers, for some time, have been demonstrating doing what they love and being provided for 👈 I Am one of those Dreamers and I have ever-unfolding stories of how this Life, the Universe, the Tao -- provides ✨ Yes, it can feel extremely mysterious at times. Yes, many times I have not known how things will work out. Yes, it has felt like what I needed came when previous resources had run out. So I could say, perfect timing 🕊 I Am not religious at all -- and -- I do find great value for myself and all of humanity in the story of the Israelites being in the wilderness 🏜 Life asked them to walk, know, and trust one day at a time that their needs would be met. Did they have fits about this at times? Yes, it's reported they did. To me, ultimately, the value of this story is that they also were being invited to relax into the Tao again. (the natural way of things) What is the benefit of allowing Life/the Soul to cultivate such trust in an individual or a group? No longer having to live in the Paralyzing Fear of Death by way of not having one's needs met 👈 So much of humanity lives in the Fear of Lack, Poverty, and -- ultimately -- starving to death. Brother, Sister, Friend, I've been out in the unknown for 2.5 years building my business from the ground up and this has not been the case for me. In my story, Life has always provided. To my credit, I have been courageous -- I have leaned into the uncertainty. I have said yes to the Mysterious Unknown ☯️ It's not always looked like what I expected or hoped for. Sometimes it's been downright confusing 🧐 I Am stronger though, and I have Life Experience with the Tao that can not be obtained by sitting and contemplating a book. I'm living it firsthand!! As Rumi once said, "As you start to walk on the way, the way appears." 👣 I was not feeling fulfilled building the dreams of others when I had my own. This has been the beginning of me building my own. I Am thankful that I have shed so many layers of what society has to say about receiving and being provided for (all that lack and scarcity stuff). I now have my own vividly lived experience with Life, the Tao 🕊 It continues to unfold... The Tao loves me, it takes care of me, it grows my faith and true understanding of how life works 🙌 And so if I can come this far -- if I can let the Tao show me what life is really about -- if I can let Life give me the experience to dissolve all those paralyzing fears of "resources running out..." Then I know others can too 👈 Life bends for the Courageous -- this I know to be True 🤍 Much Love and Many Blessings, Timothy P.S. If you injoyed this post you may also like the YouTube video below ⬇️ Have you ever wondered if there was more to life than the "safe" or "predictable" route you were told to travel growing up? The traditional route you could say 👈 I totally had an inner curiosity that began to build around the age of 30. (One that I had shut down towards the end of my teenage years.) 😔 That pull (around 30) led me into a whole new frontier of existence, one that only continues to surprise and delight me ✨ In this episode, I speak to another Entrepreneur/Business Owner by the name of Danay Novoa. Danay embarked on her own journey into the unknown about two years ago. She left the traditional/familiar and said "yes" to a brand new path that Life kept inviting her to step onto 🌈👈 Here are a few highlights from the episode ⬇️ 1. Danay shares her brave choice to leave her well-established academic career behind and follow her intuition into the Unknown 🌄 2. The familiar phrase that, "the only constant in life is change" comes up as a reminder that stability isn’t exactly all we might have been told it was. 3. Danay offers the perspective that “failure” only exists when certain expectations are in place. On the other hand, a sense of curiosity can keep us in a place of open receptivity 🕊 4. Danay shares that though we’ve been trained (as a culture) to often expect the worst, we can equally retrain ourselves to imagine best-case scenarios. 5. On the subject of contrast — we discuss how it can be seen as an opportunity to launch very powerful desires (in life) ☯️ 6. Our attitude towards the Unknown is everything! We present the approach of (always) having a choice in terms of how we respond to Life. 7. I, (Timothy/Beau) share that my lived experience in the unknown and watching how Life continues to provide has increased my confidence in the Magical Unfolding of It All (my dreams that is) 😉 If the energy of this episode is speaking to you, you can find the relevant links below ⬇️ YouTube ▶️🎧 https://youtu.be/IeofTGQ3LUA?si=7foLt1977u__zEY3 Spotify 🎧▶️ https://open.spotify.com/episode/26GBkVDxhka1Ynb76TXBlc?si=c1ae707141154134 Apple 🍎🎧 https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/restore-your-self/id1604645398?i=1000632067314 Audible 🎧📖 https://www.audible.com/pd/Following-the-Mysterious-Pull-into-the-Unknown-with-Danay-Novoa-Podcast/B0CLH329MR?action_code=ASSGB149080119000H&share_location=pdp Much Love and Many Blessings, Timothy 🕊 |
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