When I was 12 I saw the movie Speed. It scared the crap out of me. I was a sensitive kid who lived from my heart and the idea that someone out there might try to harm so many people on a bus shook me. I began to feel that the world was a scary, scary place. That's when I remember the Chronic OCD showing up. I began checking the locks on our doors at night, every night, to make sure no intruders could easily walk in. The OCD, to me, was a way that I feel that I had a sense of 'control' in an uncertain world. Not too long after I began checking all the heaters and appliances before my family would leave the house. A neighbor's house down the road had burned down from leaving a ceiling fan running in their absence -- this frightened me yet again. In my mid-teenage years, anorexia became a presence in my life. I suddenly had an infant brother transition when I was 13 and my mind began to fear the next life-shaking event that would occur. (Would I lose someone else without notice?) In my twenties, I was very much a people pleaser and created a life based on the expectations of others -- which led me to feel very unhappy. I would wash my hand sometimes 30+ times a day because I feared germs. (The more unhappy I was, the more symptoms would show up.) Chronic OCD followed me into my thirties mostly when I would be leaving my current dwelling place. I'd still have to check appliances, faucets, windows, and doors. The hand washing fell away when I had a fresh start in life at 30, yet the last-minute dwelling checks before leaving was the one thing that kept persisting. Chronic OCD, and anorexia -- put the human system into fear, fear of the worst possible outcome -- fear and a need to feel in control were the drivers for me. I never enjoyed having to do my last-minute checks 6-times in a row before leaving, yet that pattern was firmly embedded in my mind. Today, I can tell you I am free of Chronic OCD and I've done it naturally. Prescriptions and counseling have not been a part of the process of it falling away. What did the trick, you might ask? (Here is what I feel to be true ⬇️) 1. A lot of conscious examination in terms of where these fears came from and why they still wanted to be in the driver's seat. 2. Bringing compassion, love, and unconditional acceptance to those scared inner-child aspects of me. 3. Using a variety of plant medicines that are known for rewiring brain chemistry back to a natural state. 4. Prayer and a willingness to love myself, with gentleness, on the journey back to feeling Whole. I share this post to add my experience with Chronic OCD. And my pathway beyond it. Yes, today I can leave the house without doing a long checklist 6 times in a row. Today I can leave the house with ease. The Metaphysical/Spiritual Tools and Plant Medicines I've worked with in the past 8-10 years have had an increasingly profound effect on my life. That's why Emotional and Spiritual health is No. 1 for me. It is my conclusion that most psychological and physical ailments stem from a disconnected and/or suppressed relationship with the Soul (and therefore with the Greater Life, the one we see as being outside of us). When the Soul is honored and listened to -- in time, I've seen how psychological and physical ailments fall away. They cease to exist. I am not religious, I Am Spiritual. That to me means I practice a relationship with the Loving Mystery that Holds Together All of Existence 🌍🤍 I Am here to share that message. This is my experience. My life is the evidence 🤍 Namaste (the Light in Me Honors the Light in You), Timothy ✨
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