Before I started meditating about 10-years ago, I used to take the negative-inner-narrative I would hear very seriously. It made judgments about me, it made judgments about the world, it made judgments about other people... And the thing was, I thought this was normal. I thought everyone was super critical of themselves and others. If I turned on the TV I heard a lot of critical voices there, same with the radio and magazines. Everything seemed to be set against this standard of unachievable "perfection." What I also didn't realize is just how bad this inner-critic was beating me up throughout the day. After listening to it day-in and day-out I felt pretty worthless and this caused me to spend a lot of time trying to be, "perfect." At least as close as I could be to what I was told "perfect" might look like growing up. This was a pretty exhausting way to live. No wonder I didn't like myself very much... (at least back then.) Well, meditation began to change all of this. As I began learning from meditation videos, audios, and teachers I (slowly) began to realize that this voice was not truly, me. What it was, was an aspect of my mind that was doing its best to protect me from perceived harm -- pretty much all of the time -- and its strategy was to try and be "perfect." Perfect meant I would fit in, perfect meant I would be accepted, perfect meant I would feel safe. Or at least, the mind would feel those things. Accepted and safe. As I began to dis-identify with that harsh voice (from my mind) I began to feel more peaceful in Life. I began to breathe easier. I began to break free from all of that mental bullying. Don't get me wrong, this took a lot of patience, practice and discipline and I was that committed. I could no longer suffer under that harsh lens 24/7. So, I put in the work. I meditated every day and learned how to watch my mind as opposed to identifying with it -- by identifying I mean, believing everything it said to be "true." It was believing all those harsh judgments to be true that led to all of that suffering. The more I meditated the more I could see those negative judgments begin to arise and I could make the choice to say, "Yeah, I'm not buying into this" and I could let the thought pass. I could let it go. I want to stress again that this happened slowly over time and even though it may have been a process, the results did steadily build. I share this with the intention to encourage you. If you are tired of being drained by a negative and critical voice that you hear throughout the day -- you're not alone. Many people experience this. The good news is, that I and many others I know, are living proof that the mind doesn't have to stay this way. It can change, it can be re-wired, it can become less noisy. If you've never looked into meditation there are endless resources these days. There's apps, there's books, there's online courses -- you name it, there's an option to help you learn. In fact, meditation has been so helpful to me that I've even started to record my own guided meditations that I'll be sharing with the world soon. If you'd like to hear more about the resources that I used to learn meditation, feel free to send me a message below and I'd be happy to get back to you! Sending you so much compassion and encouragement on your self-growth journey, Timothy
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